Loneliness is one of the most common situations in our lives. Sometimes we desire more friends, a romantic relationship, more time with family... We weren't "designed" to spend our lives alone, but there are moments and situations that come and we don't know what to do with them.There is nothing wrong in your desires. Don't feel guilty about what you want, what you feel and how you think things could be better, and be sure that God isn't mad at you at all because of your feelings and desires. He understands. He experimented loneliness himself in the cross, the most painful moments in his 33-years life.
It is good to talk about your feelings and situations with someone you trust, isn't there a person like that in your life right now? Also, have you opened your heart to God, with all your fears, your feelings, even if there is a hint of resenment there? Remember the Psalms: David even asked God to kill his enemies!! He didn't keep anything for himself, he opened his heart and mind to God just as they were and God himself transformed his mind, feelings and life.Sometimes we can think that saying some things that are in our heart and mind to God is inappropriate and He won't like us anymore. God knows how we are made of. And if you don't put before Him all you think feel, want, fear, expect and hope for He can't transform your heart and mind first, and then your life. It is good to read the Psalms and see how David's prayer changes during the prayer, he begins with angst and rage and then he finishes with peace in his heart and worshiping the Lord!
Talk to Him about your loneliness, and how much it bothers you now. Try to build a strong relationship with Him, and with time He will provide friends, spiritual advisors, or any company you need and that will be helpful for you. Don't ask for a great amount of "friends", but for friends that really are there for you and are willing to help you grow in your path with the Lord, even if they are just a few. Maybe you could find youth groups in your parish or school, and that way you can get to know more people, but remember, even those people we admire the most, sometimes they won't act as we could have expected, and they can dissapoint us, even if they don't want to. People are not perfect, but God is. I understand perfectly how you feel, and now I can say my life is different; He made the job, and that's why I worship Him. Be not afraid, and offer your loneliness to the Lord, He'll know what to do with it, but when you offer it to Him, and offer your mind and heart as they are right now, He can transform all of them for your sake and the sake of others around you. Amen!
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